Last week, we reported that a judge had ruled that the singer and talk show host Kelly Clarkson must pay her estranged husband Brandon Blackstock $200,000 per month in spousal and child support.

Now, a source close to Clarkson is speaking out to claim that she is having a difficult time dealing with these developments in her divorce proceedings.

“Kelly is dealing with all the emotions one can deal with concerning her divorce. She has been sad, angry, shocked and every emotion one can feel, she has felt it,” the insider said, according to Geo TV. “She never wanted it to get nasty, never wanted it to be a thing that she will have to deal with for a long time, but it is now a part of her everyday life.”

“She thinks it is crazy that she has to spend so much money in support. Her work is keeping her busy and away from it for a period of time in the day but it’s always in the back of her mind and it is clearly upsetting,” the source continued. “It is a very stressful and emotional time. We are almost certain to get some interesting music from it all.”

This comes after court documents obtained by Entertainment Tonight show that Clarkson will need to pay Blackstock $150,000 per month in spousal support as well as $45,601 in child support. The judge also ruled that Clarkson must pay $1.25 million for Blackstock’s attorney fees, as well as for costs for their ongoing divorce.

While this is certainly bad news for Clarkson, it is also less than half of what Blackstock requested. In December of last year, Blackstock filed papers in court demanding $436,000 a month, made up of $301,000 in spousal support and $135,000 for child support, as well as $2 million in attorney fee

Clarkson filed for divorce from Blackstock in June of last year after seven years of marriage and two children together. She admitted earlier this year that co-parenting with Blackstock has been “tough.”

“It’s tough. … I know with me and Brandon, it’s just a difficult thing because we’re in different places, and it’s like, we both agree on the main things, but it’s a hard thing when you’re not together all the time, for me personally,” she said. “As long as you make sure it’s about the children and their best interests, then we’re both on board.”