In a new interview, the Hollywood star Jennifer Garner is opening up about her divorce from her husband Ben Affleck, who she was married to from 2005-2018.

“Going through [a divorce] in public is not what’s hard, going through it is what’s hard, A,” Garner, 48, admitted to The Hollywood Reporter. “And B, my children’s eyes are on me.”

Garner and Affleck are parents to three children: Violet, 15, Seraphina, 12, and Samuel, 9. Shortly after separating from Affleck in 2016, Garner confessed that she felt that she’d “lost the dream of dancing with my husband at my daughter’s wedding.” Now, however, after years of coparenting and building a friendship with her ex, Garner does not feel that this dream is “lost” after all.

“When our kids get married, we’ll dance, I know that now,” she said. “We’ll boogaloo and have a great time. I don’t worry about that anymore.”

Garner also talked about how difficult it has been to raise a family in the public eye. Things got so bad that she and Affleck even considered moving their family out of Los Angeles in the hopes of finding a simpler life in the country somewhere.

“It just put so much anxiety in our little family,” Garner said, adding that regardless of where they went, “some bobo with a camera” would always come around and start taking photos.

One advantage of the COVID-19 pandemic for her has been mask-wearing, which gave her family the anonymity they needed to actually go to the beach without being disturbed. After one day at the beach, Garner’s kids asked her why they had never done this before.

“I told them, ‘We’d try to go and we’d just get chased away [by the camera],'” Garner recalled. “And you’re not just ruining the experience for your family, you’re ruining it for everybody. It’s like, ‘Who wants to have us around?'”

The coronavirus pandemic has not been all fun and games for Garner and her kids, however. Earlier this month, the  discussed the challenges of raising children during this difficult time in history.

“This has been such a hard year for moms. We have had to say ‘No, no, no.’ We’ve had to watch our kids be home, miss out on things,” Garner said. “It is one thing to miss out on something as an adult, but to watch your kids miss something they have looked forward to or just how hard it has been to see them isolated and on Zoom every day…”

“It is not a positive to be me… Someone who people would think, ‘Oh, how cool to have that person as a mom.’ No,” she added jokingly. “But my teenager and my adolescent are both lovely. So I have to say, I have it pretty easy as far as that goes.”