The country music star Wynonna Judd has just gotten very real with her fans as she’s opened up about how hard menopause has been on her.

Judd, 56, admitted to Page Six that menopause left her weeping, shaking and even thinking that she was losing her mind. The worst of it came a few years ago, right after she ended a concert tour.

“I haven’t talked about this,” she said. “Well, I’ve just come off the road, everything’s off the bus and I stand in my closet and weep. The next thing is, I’m not sleeping and the next thing is I’m jiggling my leg and the next thing is I’m thinking of running up to the mailbox naked and standing and waving at people. You think crazy stuff.”

It was then that Judd decided to get help, before her private struggle could become a public one.

“I called my friend who’s a doctor and I said, ‘Do you know anybody because I feel like I’m going to do something inappropriate and be on one of those videos that goes viral,’” she said.

Judd eventually got hormone treatment, and she now wishes that the public was more open about the struggles women face when going through menopause.

“I’m not going to be ashamed,” she said. “I know people don’t want to hear about it … We should be talking about this when we’re in our 30s.”

Judd has previously been open about her struggles with depression, which is something that she still deals with on a daily basis.

“Oh honey, pick a day,” she said with a laugh. “When you live on a farm you think, oh I could just jump in a lake, but then I think I’ve got to stick around for my grandkids and make more music.”

Judd added that she has thoughts “all the time about how hard life is. But a mentor once said to me, ‘Don’t leave until the miracle happens.'”

Though Judd has been famous for decades, she confessed that it’s only been in the last ten years that she’s figured out how to use her voice to advocate for herself outside of the studio.

“I learned I gave way too much power away and I trusted so many people,” she admitted. “My life had been about people pleasing and not going in. I wish I had had more confidence to say no.

“The only time I felt comfortable standing up for myself was in the studio,” Judd continued. “That’s been an interesting journey for me. It’s an interesting time coming out of these 11 months at home discovering I will never be the same again on stage.”

Throughout all of the struggles Judd has faced, the one constant has been the music that she brings to the world.

“I’m going to go out on that stage no matter what shape I’m in,” she said. “I’m going to sing from my toenails and that’s the beauty of overcoming and not being a victim. That’s been one of my greatest journeys — I’m not a victim and I can change this at any time.”