Fans were stunned last year when Jennifer Lopez was snubbed by the Oscars for her work in the movie Hustlers despite the fact that she was nominated for tons of other awards for the film. Now, Lopez is opening up about the impact that this snub had on her.

“I was talking about this the other day,” Lopez told Allure. “[My production partner] Elaine [Goldsmith-Thomas] made a post where she listed all the things I had been nominated for and won that season. And when it came to the Oscars, it was so obviously absent. It was a sting.”

“I was like, ‘OK when you’re supposedly in everybody else’s mind supposed to be nominated and you’re not, what does that mean? Is it really real? Are the other ones real and this one isn’t?’” she added. “It came to a point where I was like, ‘This is not why I do this. I don’t do this to have 10 Oscars sitting on my mantel or 20 Grammys.’”

“The point is creating and the joy that I get from the things I get to put out in the world that entertain and inspire and empower people,” Lopez explained. “I think my life is about more than awards.”

Critics had expected Lopez to be nominated for an Oscar after she was nominated at the Golden Globes, Screen Actors Guild Awards and the Critics’ Choice Awards. It was shocking to many when the nominations came out and she wasn’t on the list.

“I was a little sad because there was a lot of buildup to it,” Lopez recently told Oprah Winfrey at the talk show host’s “2020 Vision: Your Life in Focus Tour.” “I got so many good notices – more than ever in my career. And I’m reading all the articles and I’m going, ‘Oh my God, could this happen?’ And then it didn’t and it was like, ‘Ouch.’ It was a bit of a letdown.”

“Most of my team had been with me for years,” Lopez continued. “I think they had a lot of hopes on that. They wanted it to, and I felt like I let everybody down a little bit… I felt like that for a bit.”