Kim Kardashian West broke down in tears while appearing on “My Next Guest Needs No Introduction With David Letterman” this week as she recalled her experience being robbed in Paris, France in a home invasion four years ago.

Though Kardashian West has put the incident behind her, she is still haunted by memories of being held at gunpoint.

“He grabbed me and I was wearing a robe and I wasn’t wearing anything under it,” Kardashian West remembered as she began to cry. “He grabbed me and pulled me towards him but I wasn’t wearing anything underneath. So I was like, ‘OK, this is the time I’m going to get raped. Just deal, it’s gonna happen. Just prepare yourself.’ So I did… But then he tied me up with handcuffs and zip ties and duct tape.”

“I saw him have a gun out to me. And I’m like, ‘OK, this is it.’ And I just kept on thinking about Kourtney,” she added, referring to her older sister. “I kept on thinking, ‘She’s gonna come home and I’m going to be dead in the room. She’s gonna be traumatized for the rest of her life if she sees me.’ We’re sharing her room. [I’m] on her bed. But I thought that was my fate.”

Thankfully, Kardashian West survived, and the robbers were later arrested. However, she admitted that she struggled with anxiety and trauma after the robbery.

“I didn’t even want to go to a restaurant because I thought, ‘Someone will know I’m at this restaurant. They’ll take a picture. They’ll send it. They’ll know my house is open. They’ll know that my kids are there,'” she said of the year after the ordeal. “I was just really scared of everything. I can’t sleep at night unless there are a half a dozen security guards at my house and that has become my reality, and that’s OK.”

In the end, Kardashian West said that she is glad this happened to her, rather than someone else in her family.

“I remember calling all my sisters from the car, we were on a conference call, and I said, ‘Guys, just thank God that was me. I’m very mentally strong and that would have f**ked all of your lives up for the rest of your life,'” she said as her sisters laughed in the audience.