Jenica Suppes and her husband wanted to start a family more than anything, but they were devastated to find out that she suffers from endometriosis and her husband’s sperm swims backward. Though Janice started taking fertility treatments, the couple figured this might not work for them.

“While going through those 4 treatments we felt like the Lord was leading us to consider adoption,” Jenica recalled. “We were matched fairly quickly with a mom out in California who was pregnant with twin girls. Since it was twins, we decided to take a break with fertility treatments and just focus on these sweet girls.”

Sadly, the birth mother ended up having second thoughts and choosing two separate families for each of her girls. Jenica and her husband were devastated, but they didn’t give up.

Jenica and her husband later adopted a 6-month-old boy in Louisiana, and he is now 2 years-old.

“We decided to switch to Dr. Mooney at Reproductive Gynecology because he had great referrals along with all the doctors there. We did 4 rounds of IUI with Gonal-f injections, and on our last round before we were considering IVF, we found out that we were pregnant with Quints!” Jenica wrote. “My husband almost fainted and I just kept laughing. We were having 3 boys and identical twin girls. The pregnancy was very hard with decisions such as ‘selective abortion,’ to which doctors to use and which hospital to deliver at, and how to handle being on bed rest or in the hospital for weeks on end, all the while still being the best mother I could be to my 2-year-old.”

Tragically, Jenica ended up losing her twin girls.

“I felt like God teased me again and was taking away everything we had dreamed of one by one,” Jenica said. “I kept thinking the boys weren’t going make it either and it would be my fault. I had thoughts that I should have been more careful about what I did and how much I was on my feet.”

Jenica gave birth to all five babies, but only the boys were alive, and they had some health problems that scared their family.

“Since then, we have had a TON of specialty doctor’s appointments for all the boys, including my crazy 2-year-old, but they are gradually getting better and better and growing out of some of the preemie issues they had,” Jenica wrote. “Our 8-month-old little boys have grown so much they are about to pass their older brother in weight, and sure do love their cereal, big brother (most the time) and their bouncers and walkers.”

To this day, Jenica still sometimes blames herself for losing the twin girls.

“I try to remind myself that the boys are healthier because of it and they made it to 28 weeks and grew like champs and came out as healthy as any preemie baby would at that gestation. They thrived at the sacrifice of our identical baby girls,” she wrote. “In the end, I wouldn’t trade a thing about our journey because it is what makes our family unique.”

Please keep Jenica and her family in your thoughts and prayers!